Tuesday equal to Maya day...

Today's Maya is very slack.Teacher taught 1 hr texturing and the rest of the time let us play around with Maya.She even allowed us to go an hour earlier!!Well I didn't really care...was playing classic Pac Man continously...and I still su* in it...the ghosts very good in trapping Mr.Pac Man...

Today's DES...saw one girl not bad.NOT BAD ONLY!!!Not from my group...but my lecture group...which I had lessons with in 70% of my entire lessons.She's the best I seen in 7 weeks there...and she's isn't really Ms Universe standard...so that kinds of summarises what standard the girls in my course are...but no way.I already got a target.No "backup plans" allowed.Where's the sincerity that way?!?

And speaking of this...I came to a conclusion yesterday halfway though my meditation...which kind of stopped it prematurely.And that's...I am actually using Lin Hui more as a motivational source.Yeah I just realised this...despite having feelings for her...my actions tell otherwise.Not trying to start a conversation with her...even not adding her in Friendster despite having the Internet as my barrier...these actions kind of showed that I don't really care too much about whether I'll get to be with her or not.Which feels very shi*!!!Heart say one thing body say another...

Ok no time to get emotional and cry over this...even though I want to.Got to study for C++ test now...better excel in this so that I'll have something to brag about...