Love towards a Japanese celebrity...

It had been a while since I lasted blogged so when I logged in today...my previous blog mysteriously vanished...fine with me though.Well today this entry is pretty straight forward..just look at the title and you roughly know what am i going to say in the next few lines.I just need to get this off my heart.Something is weighing down on my heart and it seems that this weight is not strong enough to tear through my heart but enough to make me feel rather uncomfortable...

This girl...no i should instead by saying this multi-talented beauty in Japan...is someone whom I seen from a movie called "Azumi" which was introduced by a close cousin of mine.Initially my cousin showed me "Azumi" because the historical period in this movie is similar to a history period I love.It's the "Sengoku Jidai"...or the Warring States in Japan.It took place from around 1470 to 1603...when the Tokugawa era ended.Ok enough of history for now.I'll continue next time.

I'll stop beating around the bush.My heart is feeling very painful now.I can't keep this a secret any longer.She is Ueto Aya (上戸彩)!!!But this love for her does not generate any thoughts about sex.In fact it is thediractly opposite.I feel disgusted with myself for seeing any kinds of pornographic websites or fantasize about her in the nude.It is like...I do not want her to be my spouse but just a friend.A normal friend.No more than that.Her beauty and irresistable smile led to me rooted then watching "Azumi".I'll end off with a lift on my heart.I could not concentrate on any thing yesterday...whether it is gaming or reading.

Here is two of my favourite photos on her.As i said...she looked like an angel to me.