Watching her slip away without even doing anything in any form to prevent that from happening...there's only two possibilties...either I have no balls or I just don't like her from my heart...I am doing nothing...what a big coward...and despite knowing this I am still not doing anything.So...is this going to be a come-and-go puppy love again?

Today's Japanese is pretty nice.Esp her.Haha.Ok back to serious stuff.Tonight's lesson is basically about getting used to the nai form...which truth to tell isn't hard at all.Just nakereba narimasen and nakutemo iidesu...which will turn out to be much simplier to understand with practice.Sign...July is coming...which means that I wil only get to see her for at most 5 more lessons.Or even lesser.Aghhhh...if tears can help to remove this aching pain then I'll just cry everything out...but every tear reminds me of my foolishness and my lack of determination to give up when there's still the chance.What can and what should I do?Normal words of advice from my fellow friends aren't going to help me much...I feel like I am in an abyss.And the only person to pull me out is myself.I must help myself...yes I must help myself...