One week had passed since 25th May 2008,the date when I decide to forsake my social life and dedicate all my time on bodybuilding and gaming and other stuff.To prevent any bitching and bitterness,although I doubt so,I'll explain the reason why I chose this path.

I 1st got worried when I read the article on Victor Martinez about balancing of the bodybuilding world and the social world.I thought that in order to have a championship body like them,it's not just genes and dedication.And to make matters worse I realized that my body isn't growing anymore.I was hesitant.I was worried.I started to think whether should I even continue to push myself to train everyday regardless of my mood...

I started to slack a lot in training,not putting in 110%,not having the correct form,and frequently skipping it if there's a sudden date or if there's a guild raid going on at that time.Bodybuilding became something not needed in my life.It was only there because my mum will nag at me for spending too much time in front of the computer.And of course since I was pretty much the 1st person around my social circle of friends whom talked about bodybuilding it'll be a joke if they realize that I stopped exercising.

Then one day I saw Arnold's training book on sales in Kinokuniya.Being an avid fan of "Arnie",I bought the book despite the price($50).Then at that very moment James Yeo probably said the one sentence that contributed so much to my decision to forsake the social lifestyle.It was ..

"You buy so many of these books I nvr see your body improve."

This sentence at first startled me.I tried to ignore it,thinking that the only person who knows my progress is myself.But that night I read yet another article about this social lifestyle.That was the breakpoint.Arnold said ...

"Sometimes it's hard to keep on a schedule because people around you,sometimes with good intentions and sometimes not,seem to do everything they can to dissuade you from attaining your goals ...

Your diet regimen can create problems, too.Eating with friends is a very pleasant social ritual,but one you will have to forgo much of the time.When somebody who should know you are in training keeps offering you food that is not on your diet, you know they don't understand or, worse, don't have your best interests at heart ...

You simply have to make whatever adjustment is necessary."

WHATEVER ...

ADJUSTMENT ...

NECESSARY ...

All of a sudden James' comments earlier on totally make sense.I finally realize what Victor meant in not being able to support both a bodybuilding and social world.I thought over my decision countless times,thinking whether do I want to sacrifice the very few fun moments that can come in life for a eternal life facing lifeless,merciless iron weights?I just went straight to bed,not bothering too much about it.

The next day I got a call to go catch "Indiana Jones".I wasn't really excited to watch it but I got to go anyway right?Just another day of social bonding.But my body said otherwise.An urge to train just rushed up my body.Adrenaline rush.It was a confusing moment.I touched my neck.The skin surrounding it was soft.I touched my triceps.All I touched is the bone structure.I lifted my shirt and looked down.My stomach is spouting multiple layers.

I spent that Sunday training at home,not answering any calls because I knew deep down that I can give no valid reasoning for my actions.There's no turning back.This very action had snapped years and years of friendship with Junxian and James,and probably even more of whatever limited friends I had,and in its place came anger,hatred,bitterness,disgust.

Why did I chose this road?This road where questions remained unanswered and actions unjustified.In the end I'm still me,although I now focus on bodybuilding more than anything else.Some might argue that I chose such a bitter road and yet not be guaranteed a championship body.Yes that's true since how well some1's body will look like is heavily dependent on genetics but I'm sure that I'll benefit more than what I'm getting last time.

I hereby apologize to every1 who felt that they had been played afool by me.I had not changed for the worst nor changed for the better.All I had do is to use this one chance and chase for my dreams.I wish everyone,my friends who had spent their secondary school time chatting,playing with me a good day and success in your future endeavours.We might or might not meet and chat again,who knows what's ahead.