I guess it's time to move on.....

I had too long relied on online friends to cover up the loss of my real life friends.Now even they are leaving...

Although I still do have some friends that invited me to go out with them,I'll always back out one way or another the day before the outing.It's as if social gatherings and outings now are days of torture to me.

My heart beats yet my burning passion for bodybuilding had died out.No longer do I look forward to the next day or to grab the next protein shake.It's now a mandatory chore of everyday's life.

What's my purpose for living in this world?Whenever I close my eyes and try to meditate I feel calm yet my spirit feels drained and lifeless.

Do I look forward to tomorrow anymore?Do I care what happens tomorrow?

Farewell dear readers.I might or might not post another entry again.